Five Letter Monster Or Angel!

The other day, on my way to an Italian Restrau(those cheesy layers better help me put on sum weight), my best friend made me listen to a song “From The Inside” by Linkin Park.
Now many of you might not be familiar vth the song. But to me, listening to that song was like a complete stranger singing out aloud my thoughts.
The song talks about someone breaking your trust over and over again. Listening to that song made me ponder over intricacies of human emotions. Fragile, yet so powerful, Simple, yet so complicated, Invisible, yet so overpowering!
This song for once focused on an emotion that kind of binds all other emotions. How wud you feel if someone who was an extended part of you only broke your trust. Not once, but again and again and again. What all emotions will you go through! Anger, Hurt, Pain, Helplessness!!Wud you still trust that person, wud you give him/her the rein over your emotions again, wud you see your heart being squished again, wud you tolerate your trust being broken for the sake of someone almost non-existential, wud you spend nights in agony wondering where you went wrong and asking yourself why the other person put you through this.
For me, I went through all that and more. I as a person am very emotional & have only a few close friends. So for me the whole experience was heightened.
But the beauty of going through rough patches in life is that you grow as a person. Every incident teaches you something. Its up to you what you learn out of it.
I knew that the incident had no ulterior motive But it made me question a lot of things. It shook my comfort zone, it cumpltly took me out from my warm cocoon.
Nevertheless my heart told me to put my faith again It was scared to go out dere and trust again, scared to be broken again, scared to be confronted vth the same thing again.
But, Trust. it did. It is important to go thru certain incidents in life & emerge out as a wiser person .I’m still fighting my demons. They have the audacity to even venture in my dreams.
The fact is I’m gonna slay dese demons as people in my life are far more important dan incidents themselves.
Only regret,dat my cocoon was snatched away. Miss the warmth dat it gave me!!

Judgement Day!!

Hmmmm!!!So here I'm writin my 1st blog ever.The lil voice in my head is blabberin away 2 glory.B careful while writin,it says.U will b judged,so write sumthng gud,or funny,or intrstng or watever.But God Damn It, jst dnt make a fool out of Urself!

I wonder wat is dis deal vth being Judged.Y all actions have 2 b dependent on "wat others will thnk".For sum of us it mite nt b true,but den for majority of the population,dis precisely is a deciding factor.

 From hanging out vth a certain set of frnds,to the kind of clothes u chose to wear,to having an individualistic thought process,to making certain choices in life,to having a certain lifestyle, everthngs Judged!

Now I cum from a splendid city called Jaipur.Acc to people dis evil is more rampant in so called smaller cities(dis term makes me feel sick).But to my amazement dis wonderful sentiment is more prominent in a metro like Delhi.

People here will go to any extent,just 2 b socially accepted.(no offense)That kinda explains the origin of the terms "drinking socially"or "smoking socially" nd so on nd so forth.

Acc to me u either drink or u  dnt or may b at times u do and those times happen only wen u so desire. But the irony is dat here other people decide whether u wil b drinkin or nt nd dat 2 hw much.And God forbid.if u say Nooo,wat will people think!!

To Each his own! I for once believe in doing things my way.Dat dsnt mean i'm a rebel.It just means dat its my life nd i get 2 live it only once.So i wud rather live it d way i want 2 rather dan stressing bout peoples opinion.They do matter.But only wen the people in question are my near ones.Society in general doesnt affect me.So heres to having opinions,individuality,or best put having a LIFE!! (And the Judgement Begins :-)  )